By the Grace of God, mother came out of surgery around 4pm today. Surgeon said cancer had NOT spread & he feels like he removed it all!! Now, the difficult part will be her lungs and getting well quick enough that she does not get pnuemonia. They gave her an Epidural for pain control.
I just got home & basically just broke down, with my dog, and bawled for 15 minutes.....though my brother & his wife were there, I felt TOTALLY alone!! They would leave the waiting room when I was there (??)....so when they returned, I would leave & go smoke. Just, absolutely, NO emotional support from anyone in my family it seems.
I get more support from my onlines friends than I do the family.................thank you for that!
My brother just called saying that mom was in quite a bit of pain & the doctor up'ed her pain meds thru epidural and gave her something else because he said mom was very upset and did not want him to leave. BUT, being in ICU, they only let visitors in during certain hours - so they kicked him out for now. He is going back tonight as I need to sleep. I went to bed at midnight last night & got up at 3am......I am physically & emotionally exhausted. So, at least, he is willing to help with visiting mom. I will be there tomorrow morning for an hour or so, he will be there during afternoon visiting for an hour or so, then I will go back for a while tomorrow night. My hope is that they have her very comfortable, and slepping, tonight. We will see.............
So, anyway, that is it for now.......going to get some sleep.
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